When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.- 1 Corinthians 13:11 A verse is just a sentence until you live it.

What’s up Dreamers? I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted a blog. I received your complaints and I promise I will post more consistently throughout the year. I’ve been so consumed with schoolwork! I’m graduating college in May and the workload has been heavy. I’m wrapping up my album “Growing Pains” and completing my book “youngmindBIGDREAMS” as well. This past November I began to work as an Assistant Youth Director of Agape Family Worship Center in Rahway, NJ. On top of all that I’m getting married this year! I turned 23 today and for the first time in my life I’ve seen myself the way other people see me. With that being said I think it’s time that I grow up!

“I’m already living someone else’s dream – youngmindBIDREAMS. I was on Facebook last night and a young man left a comment on my page that said “Hey B-Luv, I met you the day President Obama was inaugurated and you left an impact on me.” That comment alone made me realize the platform God has given me. President Obama is the first African American President of the United States. On one of the most important days in our country’s history, you met me and “I” left an impact? WOW. That statement showed me that no matter how unsuccessful I think I am, there is somebody out there that views me as a success.

All my life I felt unqualified and even when I know I earned something I always felt like there was a mistake made. I’ve been places and met people that I know my name doesn’t belong in the same sentence with let alone the same room. I’ve doubted my gifts, talents and abilities more than you know. I’ve quit time and time again. I’ve tried, failed and tried again only to find myself about to give up. Truthfully I’ve battled low self esteem and depression all my life. I wanted to be accepted and embraced by my peers. I desired to fit in and be like everyone else. The truth is, I know that there’s someone reading this right now who is feeling the same way. My words of advice to you would be: Never allow a moment to detour you from what God has planned for your life. I wanted to be like them but truthfully I wouldn’t be who I am today. I’m living my dreams and I didn’t have to be like anyone else to get here. God doesn’t make mistakes. You weren’t an accident. Don’t live your life like you were. Be who God called you to be!

When I was a child, I spoke and thought like a child but when I became a man I put those childish things away. Living with a mentality of being unqualified is childish way to live. Why aren’t we speaking life into our heart? Why aren’t we reading the scriptures to our minds? I am a child of a God who doesn’t have limits and boundaries. Stop allowing your mirror and the people around you to predict your future. Trust God and believe that He has a future for you. You’re worth so much more than what you see. Stop being so childish. GROW UP!

So as I look at what I’ve accomplished, what I’m accomplishing and what I’m about to accomplish, I fully understand that nothing I have is deserved. Everything I am a part of, every idea that I have, every day that I live is a privilege. I’m not worthy of anything. Just as easy as it was given, God can take it away and give it to someone else. I am thankful. True maturity is understanding who you are and where you are going. I’m tired of trying to live life with my eyes closed. It’s time that I trust God. It’s time that I GROW UP! Success is in the eye of the beholder. The mirror you’re holding may never tell you that but the One who is holding you always will. Thank You Lord for allowing me to see the way you see me. Thank you!

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